I was having a hard day when I painted this. A hard time keeping my mind grateful and not spinning with the troubles of this world. Some of those troubles hit us very personally in our finances. We are going on 3.5 years now. Sometimes I am just plain weary. On one hand, my art business is doing really good. Better than ever and miraculous provision after miraculous provision just keeps coming even though my husband is struggling to get his footing in the work force and my big, big dream of building an amazing studio on our property is seemingly slipping away from my grasp. I dared to dream bigger and make plans for it to happen in five years three years ago. Two years away from now. Last month, I had to dip into the savings for that studio to help make ends meet and increased my housecleaning jobs. I am working more than ever to help make ends meet. When I started this painting I chose to paint with messy colors in a messy way to just get the junk thinking out of my head. Free myself of the chaotic heartbreak I was feeling. Then I pulled myself together to make this fox face make sense. I was surprised to see that I painted my messy self that day. As I redeemed the messy paint into a fox head the mess in my mind dissipated and was replaced with order. That is what Jesus does. He takes our mess and redeems us. He is a God of order. He took chaotic and formless world and made order in the beginning. He calmed the seas with a word from his mouth. He comforts us with these words, "There will be troubles in this world, but take heart for I have overcome the world". "Come to me all you who are weary and I will give you rest." Because of him I am (we are) more than a conquerer. I am (we are) victorious and am able to believe in his words in Jer 29:11 - "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Hope deferred makes the heart sick. I refuse to let my hope be deferred. I will stand firm in my faith and hope for my future.
September 26th, 2022
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